Thursday, May 24, 2012

My Stress Is Nearly Over

He leaves on Monday. That's really all I wanted to say. I decided to make an entire blog post centered on that first statement. He leaves on Monday. My stress level should go down IMMEDIATELY.

Of course I'll work on my stress reduction after I run around the house naked a couple times.

Saturday, May 19, 2012

I've Hit A Wall

Do you ever notice that bloggers who have kids have an endless supply of what to talk about? No I'm not going to have kids just so I can blog more but I feel like I need to add substance to my life. Here's what's standing in my way right now.

 - On May 22nd The Boy, and one of my brothers, graduates from High School.
 - On May 20th The Boy has Seminary graduation at the local church.
 - On May 21st The Boy has graduation practice.
 - On May 27th, or 28th, The Boy leaves for Boot Camp. (Hallelujah)
 - On June 4th my husband receives his first (well first to us) lump sum payment from his annuity. This is what is allowing us to buy a house right now.
 - On June 4th my husband turns 35.
 - We're currently hunting for a house throughout the state. We're not having much luck in the Southern portion but can't figure out how to get to the Northern portion without living there. It's hard trying to buy where you're not currently living when you don't have unlimited funds, or unlimited time, to visit said area.
 - I'm packing. Enough said.
 - We're moving all unnecessary items to a storage unit.
 - I'm stressed and for numerous reasons.
          - House hunting is harder, and more emotional, than I thought.
          - I'm not sure if we have enough boxes to put all our crap in. Trivial but it's still plaguing me.
          - We still have finish work to do in this house. It's not happening and I'm worried.
          - What if we don't find a house in time and have to pay another months rent? I don't want to do that but I also don't want to be homeless.
 - We've paid our rent through the end of July, or August, and, at this point, that's not seeming like enough time.
 - We attempted to contact a builder in Northern Utah and it didn't go very well. They told us they would email more information and they never did. I guess that's one to X off the list of possibilities.
 - People in this area want custom home prices for base model homes. I'm not paying that.
 - Did I mention I'm stressed?
 - My Min Pin still has diabetes and it's not getting any easier, especially with all that's going on, to manage it.
 - My other dog is getting old and starting to grow lumps (which are fatty lumps, we've had the checked out) all over her body. I don't want to lose her. Not when she's a main stress reducer in my life.
 - I'm losing a lot of sleep over "what-ifs" and it's really getting to me.
 - I'm sure this is too much information but Aunt Flow showed up yesterday and boy howdy did she come in with a bang. I guess that's a good thing though considering I don't want kids.

Can I just say it felt really good to put that all down. Although, I'm sure, if I go back through and look at all that crap I'm going to freak out.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

I Judge You

I come from a past full of money troubles. My parents both worked 40+ hour weeks just to keep food on the table and pay the "mortgage" on a 2 bedroom trailer to house myself and my four little brothers. We always struggled with finances. My parents had to file bankruptcy twice when I was a kid. We lost numerous cars to the banks and, at times, didn't know what we were going to be eating. I'm not saying we ever starved but we were never sure what was going to be on the table. Most of our food came from the Bishop's Storehouse which isn't necessarily a bad thing but I'll be honest and say I would have rather eaten spam, which we ate a lot of, at times rather than eat what we got from the storehouse. Bills were often paid by outside entities. When Christmas rolled around none of us expected anything to be under the tree. There always seemed to be something there but we're weren't anticipating anything. Living as I do now, not needing a job and enjoying the finer things in life, I always wonder how we managed to get by.

This is where the judging comes in.

I hear of people struggling with finances, who go shopping nearly everyday for frivolous things, and wonder why the heck they're spending their money, on t-shirts and makeup, when they should be saving for the rainy day they know is around the corner. Do they really need to make that vanity purchase when they live with their parents, don't have a car, and are constantly complaining about not having money, their own place, or a car?

This isn't just something I do with people I don't know. It happens, most often, with my own family members. I have family that attends every event possible in town and then wonders why they can't afford some of their bills. They give their kids allowances and buy them useless junk and then stress about paying the water, or electric, bill.

Why is it that I worry what OTHER people are doing with their money? It's none of my business. The worst part is that it becomes more than worry at times. I complain about it to other people acting like I have something to do with it and they should listen to me because apparently I think I know everything when it comes to money management. I don't. I never have. Why does this plague my thoughts?

I realize this is probably the stupidest, snootiest post, you've ever read but this is something I'm trying to get over and I'm just not sure how to do it. Am I the only one that does this? Am I the only one complaining about what OTHER people do with THEIR money?